So I went to my second support group meeting. It was a little easier and I talked. Someone brought up dreams and dreaming about their departed spouse. I was reminded of the death of a close friend when I was in my early 20s. She was killed in a car accident, hit by a drunk driver. We had an argument and had not spoken for months. It was sooooooooo hard. I remember I went to the funeral with her x-boyfriend. I struggled with guilt for a few months and would have nightmares that I couldn't find her. Finally one night I dreamt that she was driving a van and picked me up. We were driving along and she told me she was okay and I should be okay. I never had another dream or nightmare involving her. I don't know if my mind was just working it all out, or if she really spoke to me through my dream and made it okay. I told this story at the support group this week. I also talked about the weekend Dave died. The party and visitors on Saturday night and Sunday. When I said Dave and I were married for 24 years and I've been with him for 27 (counting now 'cuz I'm still with him) an older gentleman said " you must have been 12 when you got married". Hehe...that was very nice.
It is good to start some friendships with people who really understand the loss and loneliness the death of a partner brings. I will keep going. It's time for bed.
peace, love, groove
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That support group is the ticket, Dave would be so proud and supportive of this and there will be more He he’s too. Wait till you get the one that you can't stop smiling at! This is a great road to a new chapter that celebrates & honors the previous one.
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Well Lee, talk of dreams brought tears to my eyes again. I had two dreams with Dave after he died. In the first, Dave was in bed and I wanted to be near him. He sat straight up and with a strong clear voice said "Hi Buddy". In the second, Dave was in the same room but with a crowd of people. He was dressed in the most exquisite clothes I could imagine. When they left I felt Dave was with the right group. Maybe it's Twilight Zone stuff or maybe just the way our minds work through the tough stuff.
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Buddy
Buddy, I think both could be right. But I know we work through some of our feelings in our sleep. Dave's strong presence remains in my heart. It's a little strange because I feel like he's telling me to go forward and that he'll still be here.
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Lee, its like Dave is saying the same thing to me also, to tell you to go forward and he will be there for you! He wants you to find love and the whole bit & live life to its fullest so he is playing it at all the angles. Don't be sad now because he is not. Love yah Dave!
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