The End of August

...and the busiest month of the summer for me.  The second week I went with the Lester's to the UP.  A quick trip that included a boat trip under the bridge and to Mackinac island.  Then Julie and I spent most of a day on the island bicycling around, eating a great meal by the water and touring the Grand Hotel.  I even found a new sweatshirt.  The third weekend brought a very quick trip to Vegas to see YES with a college friend and VIP tickets.  It was amazing to sit in the front row and meet the band.  

Last week I had to have a small outpatient procedure, which meant I  had to cancel a short trip for a Maki-Routsinoja reunion in Wisconsin early September since all of my vacation time was all used up.   Although I readied for the day like every other adventure this month, I found myself feeling very alone and emotional.  I suddenly wasn't sure how to keep fear from taking over.  Of course the Maki family and great friends were by my side.  Work and travel plans were changed so I wouldn't really be alone.  Although thankful, I couldn't stop thinking "how did I end up single" and "this wasn't in the plan". Well the bottom line is I should be fine and I did make it through with family and friends, but will it be easier next time?  That is one of the questions that seem to continue on.....the doubts that stay in the background.  10-10-12 will be here before I know it.  

A very good friend gave me the book "The Year of Magical Thinking" last year and told me to read it when I was ready.  I've started reading and I will finish it.  I don't know all of the answers the future will bring, not sure who really does.  It continues to be *one day at a time*.


peace, love, groove

One Month and Summer is Passing FAST!

I can't believe it's been one month since the July 4th party.  Time has just flown by so fast!  August and September will be busy and probably fly by too.  I'm going up past Mackinac with Julie Lester next week.  Just a quick trip to take Mark up for his yearly sailing trip with his dad.  Julie and I will go over to the island the next morning and then drive back.  The next weekend I'm flying to Las Vegas to go see YES with a college friend.  First week of September is a Routsinoja (Dave's mom) family reunion in Wisconsin.

The dogs seem to be adjusting to life with "daycare" and we'll start some agility classes again this Friday.  But, I have to get rid of the carpeting in the dining room/living room and the back door flooring too.  They've been urinating and it started getting more frequent.... I have to do something drastically different to stop what appears to now be a habit quickly.  I should have an estimate for flooring this week and start making some decisions.  Of course that has meant painting the back entryway and cleaning shelves, etc.  I'm sure I'll be painting more rooms too.

I've decided to give Lori's Place another try at the end of the month.  They stop the support group for the summer and restart the end of August.  Maybe I'll just go a couple times....we'll see.  To be really honest, I'm starting to consider Match.com.  10-10-12 will mark 2 years since Dave died and I think I need to start really moving forward.  I've always thought I'd date someone I knew...an old friend, but that hasn't worked out.  We'll see what October brings.  As I watched Andy Murray finally defeat Roger Federer today at the Olympics it occurred to me, some things are worth the wait.

I hope everyone is having a great summer.  peace, love, groove