Earlier tonight I re-read Dave's letter to the editor following the Benefit. It brought many tears. He was such a good writer. You'd never know it from his songs....Neon or no words at all, but he could write. Lately I think about the weekend Dave died a lot. Also how scared I was when he was first diagnosed. The main lung tumor was very close to his aorta. I never made a big deal about it around him....well to anyone (I think). It just sorta feels like my brain needs to decompress. Well, I just miss my Dave.
peace, love, groove
Big hug from me to you. See you in July:)
ReplyDeleteLee you were amazingly strong for Dave (and for all of us, really). It's not surprising at all that it's going to take some time for those "muscles" that supported Dave through his sickness to relax. As you relive the events of that time, I suspect you'll find even more jewels like this letter that you will now have time to savor. You're amazing, Little Lee. See you soon!
ReplyDeleteIf there was a "like" button for what Dave just said, I'd click on it:)
ReplyDeleteThanks both of you. It feels like there's still more to tell. I appreciated everyone being there. love you!
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ReplyDeletePlayed to a huge crowd in Grand Rapids Saturday night, one of the songs I did was “Does Anybody Really Know What Time It Is” for Dave & the place went nuts! It looks like Dave’s passing has us all looking for who is no longer with us & reaching out. Dave was good at reaching out.
Love you Dave!
John--love that song! It's ALWAYS reminded me of Dave, even before all the bad stuff...
ReplyDeleteLee--expounding on what Dave said, I'm thinkin you were running on autopilot for much of that journey, and now that he's gone and the drive to care for and protect him is gone, when things like that letter come up, you feel them more acutely now. Freed from the role of caregiver, you now can absorb and feel everything. I'm thinking this may go on for awhile: things you couldn't afford to feel at the time, will present themselves now. If that makes sense...
Awesome John. And Mimi I think you're right on. I'm dreaming about Dave more now. Last night he went to a party without me and it took me a long time to find him. :)
ReplyDeleteThere is a lot of unfinished Love too, like the movie somewhere in time. Roger Burns blew up a U-Haul truck on 131 north & I know the exact spot where we stopped. When I drive by it I close my eyes and think back to then and for a second it is then. We can’t process all of the present and so the residuals come back. That is why leaving their voice on the answering machine, videos, songs they sang, and notes they wrote are so important. That note from Roger in the Bedroom will stay there forever & Dave singing a “Merry little Christmas” & the mural is so special. LOVE, it stays with us and with it so do they! Love ya Dave!
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